All that’s left are the memories of what could have been. The excitement and glowing, knowing the love that blooms inside me. I already loved you before I knew your name.

Seeing you for the first time, tiny fingers wrapped around mine, a contagious giggle, a gummy smile lighting up my own,

experiencing your countless firsts, all the meltdowns and tears, sleepless nights spent holding you close, holding you tight so you know everything will be okay,

everything will be okay. Hold me tight now because I need to hear those words that I can’t even convince myself of.